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Writer's Block: The supper club

Which persons, living or dead, would you invite to a fantasy dinner party? What topics would you discuss? Are there any subjects would you avoid? Lastly, what kind of food would you serve?

The Queen Mother
Dali Lama
Lenard Nimoy
Prophet Muhammad
The Virgin Mary
Philip Difranco
Jules Verne
Douglas Adams
Johnny Depp
Tim Burton
The Davenport sisters from the clockwork cabret

Now since its a fantasy party I have the short list of 'characters" i'd invite as well....

Rory and Lorelai Gilmore - and maybe Jess because honestly those are some conversations I'd like to hear.. and Lorelai has a way of keeping things light but serious and fun so its a whole other side.


I'd go Gilmore style and have lots of everything so everyone could make their own take home platters at the end of the night.
I'd try to touch all corners of the earth so everyone could experience whichever they desired.
The good thing about going out is you can have things you don't normally at home.
Also I would serve wine, coffee, tea, spring water, juices  for liquid refreshment


I wouldn't avoid anything really because there is too much I'd want to know from all of them.
Future Predictions
Suggestions on personal growth etc.

I think it would be pretty amazing to be honest.

fairy goodness :)

i was reading through my google reader subscriptions today when i found a post talking about Rj Andersons book "knife" i think i might have had a mini heart attack... first of all - i love faeries so i don't care if she writes for teens/kids i am in.  Yes i am still remembering i have 52 books to read as part of my book challenge and i have two beside me to finish. lol

Also, her site has icons and desktop wallpapers i kid you not - rest assured i borrowed :)
Also she is Canadian.. i kid you not. You have no idea how much I just want to hug her right now.

However, i wanna smack chapters - amazon has it but not chapters? i mean seriously?
There's something to be said about supporting local writers.

Digging in the same blog also lead me to the "Don't piss off the fairies" line of stuff on cafe press..
oh happy me.  the hoodie i wanted only appears to be in jr size so a tshirt it is.

I am off.. time to eat, and have some more coffee and make myself write and study while the christian folk do their christmas.

Writer's Block: Role model

Is there any character from a novel or film that serves as a role model to you? What kind of advice do you think she or he would give you regarding any major issues you're facing right now?

this question was so well thought out that it through me off and made me sit and think about all my favourite characters.. and i have many!
But i think in terms of realistic life like characters I'd have to revisit one of them from Mists of Avalon.. putting aside the very different ideas of religion I am actually quite curious as to how any of them would handle my life right now.

Its in a very different cycle. Between working my ass off to help someone I care about live through what they are going through right now and adjusting my life to make me happy its difficult at times.

But I think they would all tell me to look to the gods to find the answer and to have faith that what was right would come and in the end it won't be as hard as i think at the time.

we always think it is because that is all that we see.. that big problem glaring at us. But i think she'd also remind me to hope for tomorrow and what it would bring.

Writer's Block: Sense and sensibility

If you could keep only one of your five senses--taste, touch, smell, sight, or hearing--which would you choose and why?

Smell.. is the sense i would keep. Smelling something you enjoy not only uses that sense but also conjurers up a mental image from memory. Depending on the memory that goes with that image it can be more intense emotionally then if you were really looking at something, since we often take things we see every day for granted.

Sound could do something similar but at least this way You also learn to experience sound through touch and it adds to the experience..
this i know as i have hearing issues. So in a way you lose but you also gain.

Writer's Block: Book worms unite!

What are the three best books you have ever read and what are the three worst? What made them so good or bad?

Twilight Book two
Twilight Book Three

The writing was weak. Character development was ok ish. But I found everything to be vague and honestly lacking in everything that a good book needs. It was like the writer was only half bothering to write the book or she was multi tasking far too much and the publisher couldn't be bothered to make her take another look at it.

I had heard that twilight was the "next harry potter" HAHAHAHA. Yeah, no way.. Not even remotely close.

Harry potter was magic. It drew you in and you were just home. it wasn't just you reading the book anymore, you were in the book walking along side the characters through out. You were Hogwarts newest pupil.

Sitting on the stool thinking about what house you wanted to be put in and waiting for your journey to start during the first book.
Even during the wait for the next book you never are really gone from Hogwarts because the magic is something you carry with you.
The hope the excitement, that feeling of never growing up.

You just don't get any of that with any of the Twilight saga.

It doesn't have that rock solid plot, the world design that you want to just fall into, the strong characters that you feel like you know and you've either watched grow up or grown up with depending on your age or the age you admit to LOL.

I didn't buy the first book it was given to me, so i read it to see what the fuss was about. (even after the person told me it was horrible lol)
I agreed thinking maybe i'd read more to see if it got better. It doesn't in fact it might have gotten worse.
The potential is there but the writing is not.

So after being given the first book, buying the second, I realized I was not spending another dime on that franchise because it was crap.
I read the rst of the series thanks to internet ebooks.
I read the rest because its an affliction i have no matter how bad it is i have to finish a series even if I just skim it.
It didn't get better. In fact it made me sad.
You can see the potential but she just doesn't bother to grasp it.

Someone needs to tuck her in a note that explains writing courses are online and if you look hard enough they are free.

The only thing similar about these two is that the authors were women and may or may not have both been single mothers.
So thank you but no. No twilight for me.

Favourite books for me is really hard to answer because there are so many.
Since we already know how I feel about Harry Potter I will jump further on in the list.

Mists of Avalon. - Marion Zimmer Bradley.
I love this book, so much so I bought the made for tv movie on dvd.
(which by the way does not do the book justice but if you saw the size of the book you'd know why)

But..that said Mists is one of those books that grabs you and sucks you in so that you see nothing but that world, its people, and you eat, sleep, and breathe it. I found that out the hard way. I had to be pried away from this book to eat and sleep. In those times where I was not reading the book, I was thinking about the book.

I found myself sad when the book was on a low and I was flying with happiness and proud when the characters were so.

Mists of Avalon changed who I was and definitely who I was supposed to become.
Its one of the two books that I will forever re-read and see small things i didn't every other time i read it.

Hitchhikers Guide to the galaxy - Douglas Adams.

What can I say about this book that hasn't already been said in the almost 32 years since it was aired on the radio and then put to book and dvd.
Its a book, that makes you shake your head, laugh in wonder and believe in anything and everything.
Its a book that will make you carry a towel for the rest of your days and wish there really was an electronic guide.
Its definitely the greatest book there is of all books. Its an hour the author deserved and well earned.

Lost Souls - Poppy Z Brite

Finally a book about Vampires that isn't something that Anne rice style.
Sometimes something is just so over done it makes you hate the original author and lord do i hate anne rice. (now)
Whenever you hear vampire thats all anyone can conger up in a picture now is the things she described.
However, with that said, sadly now that twilight is out I think i will miss the days of anyone only bringing up anne rice when they talked about vampires.. Now we have to hear about sparkling vampires.

[Picture me rolling my eyes here]

But back to Poppy's vampires. I loved this book . Poppy was the first person to make me fall in love with a character. I admit it. (lol) I absolutely loved 'Nothing' I could completely see where he was coming from and feel the things he felt. .
Poppy also broke the mold in terms of sexuality and vampires which takes some serious creativity and skill - ok and possibly a set of brass balls to go up against the crap that's already out there.

I have read this book so many times, gave it as gifts, written about it, talked about it.. I just can not say enough about it.
Other the read it.

That's my list.. the only part of it that never changes order because I just connected that strongly.
Things have gotten interesting dare I say. Between a mail that i did not honestly see coming but I guess I should have. I mean some time has passed since we broke up I guess I could not have expected him not to think about things.
It's just really hard because he is such a great guy and if he had not been in a manic phase when we met then right into a heavy depression part of me can not help but wonder what if.

But on the flip side, had that not occurred where, would I be now? With that realization it is hard for me to regret the way that things went. I ended up on a path where I have found peace although it will not be an easy one. But I have always said if its easy i don't want it.

Here is my test to that.

Religion sure has gotten a bum rap, I noticed it but I never really NOTICED it until i started on the path I am now and finding where I fit in the big picture when it comes to religion.
I started actually seeing the negativity built up towards certain countries and their religions and it makes me angry. Angry that people can be so ignorant and self absorbed to publicly put the hate out there.

I admit I may not have always understood some various faiths but I would never in my wildest dreams go out of my way to make a group that's based on hate against one faith or race etc.

What makes them think they are that special and that god like that they can do that ? I mean honestly. And how do public domains let it stay up?

Censorship is one thing but hate for the purpose of hate is another.

Its really made me think.
Especially with the new path that I am on just how it effects me.

As I am bound to face the same hate and who knows what else i am in a small community - so small we do not even have a mosque :(

Sharing and not..

Tho i feel a great sense of peace over the way things have been in my life for awhile now I can not help but wonder how i will be able to make some of the bigger changes when the time comes. I already have almost no support now, I can only imagine the way things will get worse when the time comes when i feel the time has come.

My "family" and i use that term lightly for so many reasons wear there symbols around their neck thinking that, t hat is enough the rest don't even do that. In actuality the only ones with any real strength in their faith at all is the older generation consisting of my grandparents and great aunt and uncle.

Tho not for me, it is the right faith for them. But i guess that is better then no faith at all?

I wish there was a way that I could make then understand but with in my family that will just never work.

My maternal side especially with their explosive, racial, hatred filled alcohol infused ignorant way of thinking, it would just be bad.
I admit that it leaves me kind of sad to not be able to share the fact I have finally found something that makes me happier then I can ever remember being about something and I can not share it. But then when I think about it honestly with myself what have I ever been able to share with them?

Nothing. Ever. They've been in my life the last 3 years and they know nothing about me because they chose not to and the little they do they bad mouth, laugh at and talk about behind my back.

why would I ever want to share something so beautiful with people so ugly on the inside?
Misguided human nature I suppose.
Wanting to share something beautiful with someone.

so I am attempting to do things of a more positive nature and reaching out to other sisters who will share my love for Islam and striving to learn more.
I just wish that I wasn't so skiddish with people that I didn't know. I constantly fear that they will dislike me because I am not enough of this or that.
I then realize what I am doing and force myself to not worry so much and just let things happen as they may.

it doesn't matter what religion race or gender someone is, not everyone is going to like us, and thats fine. I in fact know there are people out there who dislike me.
One especially so because I called him out for what he was dangerous, toxic, human being and now he feels the need to try to blemish my reputation. However, its quite alright because he is failing at doing so.
Everyone he has tried to turn against me has in fact turned against him.

I think he has finally gotten the point that he can not hurt me or damage me because the last message i received was friendly ish. Still did not stop me from marking it as spam and blocking his email address.

Hopefully now all that garbage will be done with as I don't need that stuff.

I still have yet to get my toilet fixed. I just can not be bothered to make the phone call. I have to take my lease down at some point anyways so I will just mention it then. Likely when I have a friend here as I just don't like dealing with these things myself.

It's always part of what drew me to a Dom partner in the past. I guess.
But I currently don't have a partner of any fashion.

Time for dinner..

Ireland House Disaster

I am disappointed, my journey out to the museum today did not go as well as I thought that it would. I had not realized that it was going to almost be completely inaccessible to me. I saw two rooms not including the gift shop.
I asked for handi parking when I got there. walked by four 3 people before I paid with my cane and none of them bothered to tell me this until after they took my money and I got to see one room and hear some of the history.

I'm feeling left out, humiliated, frustrated. angry. So I don't know now if any thing the group does is something I would be able to participate in. I am the only one with any kind of issue like that.
other then taking the suggestion I had to write to the museum mentioning they might want to put something up on their website about issues with accessibility.

It has beaten me down today and i just can't shake that very broken feeling.
It's days like this that I just wish i had someone to wrap up in and hide from the world.

What i did get to see was beautiful, I give it that and the family history was very interesting. I plan on trying to find out what I can about the house and the history of it and both families that lived there on my own and see if that helps make up for it.

looking for something missing.

I am insanely tired today - No coffee is throwing me off. God to love the thoughtless individuals you call friends who are supposed to help with that and then they don't.

Something has felt like it was lacking in my life over the last while and I have been on a hunt to figure out what "it" is.
I've been doing more reading - if that's even possible.
Possibly a bit more writing as well, realizing little things a long the way.
It's helping - slowly.

i am just not a very patient person, not when its myself I am waiting on anyways. But I am trying to change that. Important things like self awareness and growth shouldn't be rushed.
All that would do is put me back right where I am now a few months from now and i would rather not go through that again. it solves nothing, in fact it makes things worse.

I started reading things I have been curious about but just never sat down and get started on. My interest in religion being one that always seemed to be something I'd get to later.
I also went out of my comfort zone and put a few ads up else where - more vanilla sites but I put in that I was kinky because the last thing I need is to try to explain to someone what I like and have to deal with rejection. At least this way its out there and those that aren't into it won't reply.

Of course my first reply is a 65 year old retired widower who likely replied because I mentioned my chair and the kittens. Both of which we had in common.
I am trying so hard to not let that colour my thoughts on how the site is going to go. I really am.

I'm just tired of meeting all the wrong people and hopefully this will be the help that I need. I am just tired of men tho think they can get in my pants easily and wanting nothing more then that.

Ah well. Stressing over it isn't going to change anything.
time for some coffee or tea and some writing.

Writer's Block: Book review

What (if any) books would you ban from a high school library? Are there certain subjects that you feel are inappropriate for teenagers regardless of literary merit?

I don't believe in censorship.
No matter how much i disagree with something, it doesn't mean that there is nothing that it can teach someone. I think that is what so many forget. They get so caught up in how much they dislike something they forget that not everyone processes things the same way, so this book could be just what someone else needs to make them think about things and come to the conclusion that's right for them.

If we go around banning books because someone disagrees then pretty soon there are going to be no books to ban because eventually no ones going to want to write fearing being banned because as time passes people get more and more jaded and have something to bitch about with everything.

Instead of teaching censorship we should be teaching tolerance and educating everyone including issues that are covered in books that are "banned" When you hide something or censor it, you are pretty much making a market for it in the dark corners, allowing for situations that could be dangerous with out the right education - all we need to do is open our eyes to look at our own society to see how well that's turning out.

Not every subject is going to be appropriate for every teen but that's where the parents need to step in and be parents and where the education system should step in and meet families half way, especially when you consider during an average week teens spend more time at school then they do with there families at home.

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