Other then hoping against hope that tests im going to have to go in for don't come back as cancerous.
But Im determined to not freak out unless I am given reason to.
The on and off relationship I seem to find myself sucked into again is just not ever going to work out.
Every time they get better he does something so idiotic that I just want to tell him to go walk off a short pier.
And I did that pretty much last night, just before I hung up on him again. I havent bothered to reply to anything this morning. I honestly can not be bothered.
So instead I read the rest of my book - The Drowned Book - Bahauddin (the father of Rumi)
I have now a list of pages numbers with the quotes I want to recall before I take it back to the library..
3 of the 4 books Ive finished in the last 3 weeks have been for my book challenges.. One was an extra because I completely forgot I ordered books in the mail.
I have a stack here of 4 that belong to the one Im avoiding, plus one I have already read. I need to get on that so I can give them back.
One less thing hanging over my head when things inevitably end.. again. For the last time.
I think Im going to have to do what I did with the other chris when we split.. delete all contact info.. that way we can't talk.. and i can't miss him and end up back where it all started.
we get along and we make great friends but you bring up anything else into and i want to kill him. its not supposed to be like that.
Some people just make better friends - thats just all there is to it.
- Current Mood: tired